But I can't find the words to tell you.

That very first time I looked you in the eyes, my heart raced. Not for the lesson or whatever came afterward, but for you.

Everytime I'm around you, I feel weak. Every single aspect of you just takes my breath away.

Your flawless hair, your beautiful smile, your sparkling eyes, that sweet voice.

Right now, I just wish I got to know you better before, instead of struggling with my self-esteem and confidence issues.

I may not have the softest touch

I may not say the words as such

And though I may not look like much

I'm yours.

I'm back to square one. 6 months later, it's still the same. But different in a way. I just feel that she's the one. But then again, I felt the same for everyone before. What makes this any different?

Story of my life: Is this the right candy bar for me?

Empowered by the Holy Spirit, to do whatever is pleasing to His eyes.

This week was awesome. In more ways than one.

Church camp was really great. Once again, I felt the Spirit flowing through me, molding me to do His will, to live a life for Him.

For a long time I wondered, why did Jesus die for me? Who was I, do deserve his sacrifice.

But the answer was there all along, I just didn't see it.

Jesus loves me, this I know.

For the Bible tells me so.

It's right there. Just because the His Word says so. Nothing else matters, apart from the fact that He loved me, and gave his life for me.

Right now, I'm still struggling to live a Godly life, in my words, thoughts, and actions. It's a long, uphill battle. But I know I can make it, with Him leading me through.

One message that really spoke to me was the one on God's calling. One particular sentence rang out, like a gong amidst all the mayhem.

"When we ask Him for advise, it's just for His mark of approval. Even if He disagrees, we still go on with it anyway."

^ That was who I was. Praying only to ask God for His stamp of approval, not listening when he said no, not heeding His word, not following His direction for my life.

Only now, I realise, it is only through Christ, that we have strength. Man on his own, is nothing.

Heng Guang, learn to give Him your all, have faith. Let faith guide your way, don't get bounded by the ways of the world.

This is me, now, transformed.

I know I don't fit in that much,

But I'm Yours.