Dying of the light.

In the ongoing search for self, there are days when we learn something genuinely new. Something uncovered, hidden, that we never knew was there. Something that surprises us. And on that day of self-discovery, the question remains: What kind of person are we? Does the hero, or the villain inside us, win the day?

It's ironic, how some people can be the closest to you, yet seem so distant when you need them.

Raaaaah. I don't know why I'm blogging more these days, maybe it's the mood.

Just a little smile can make a person's day. Smile, and see what I mean.

Die 8 hours of school tomorrow. I want cookies and lasagna.

And as the search for self continues, we look for answers everywhere. In nature, in God, in tiny tragedies that may never be understood. But still, we are driven to it, single-minded on one goal: to find our purpose on this earth. No matter what the ramifications, the friendships that may be hurt, or the deals with the devil we need to make.

Smile, and show everyone how beautiful you are.

Hello lonely.

The earth is large — large enough that you think you can hide from anything. From fate, from God — if only you found a place far enough away. So you run. To the edge of the earth, where all is safe again — quiet and warm. The solace of salt air. The peace of danger left behind. The luxury of grief. And maybe for a moment you believe you have escaped.

Whee 3 weeks into April and I've updated like 5 times when I updated only 4 times during March.

Poly has finally started, and I'm having a great time here at TP. Funny lecturers that pronounce "gender" properly, $40++ textbooks, and a board game cafe visit in 2 weeks.

On the other hand, it kills to be waiting for the same bus as 8328654365483659243 other people.

• 61 Lecture Theatres
• 1240-seater Temasek Convention Centre
• 555-seater and 250-seater Auditoria
• An Outdoor Amphi-theatre
• Industry-relevant Laboratories and Training Facilities
• An 11-storey Library
• Retail Shops
• Postal Services
• A Student Lounge
• Alumni Lounge
• Sports Complex

(Track-and-Field Stadium, 3-D Rock Climbing Wall, 2 Indoor Volleyball/Netball court, 2 Outdoor Volleyball/Netball Courts, 1 Outdoor Netball Court, 1 Indoor Basketball Court , 2 Outdoor Basketball Courts, 8 Indoor Badminton/4 Sepak Takraw courts, 2 Squash Courts, Table Tennis Equipment, 8 Tennis Courts, Multi-Purpose Astroturf, Football/Rugby Pitch, 2 Outdoor Street Soccer Courts, Gymnasium, Rock Gymnasium, 1 6-station Fitness Corner.)

• 2 Jamming Studios
• 2 Dance Studios
• 2 BBQ Pits
• Beach Volleyball Court
• Cricket Pitch
• Swimming Complex

(1 Training Pool, 1 Olympic Size Swimming Pool and 1 Children's/Wading Pool.)

• Adventure Learning Course
• Five Canteens

(Business Park, MENSA, The Designer Pad, The Short Circuit and The Bread Board.)

• One Food Court (Flavours)
• 3 Cafés (Jupiter Café, Sugarloaf Café, Bistro Walk)
• 1 restaurant (The Top Table)
• CHEERS convenience store

Thank you Wikipedia. But Mensa's food sucks. I never knew we had a children's pool.Kewl.

 

I love the reservoir behind. Gives me an open space to connect with nature, time to think, be myself. 

I don't feel like typing much now, most of the stuff I wanted to say has already faded away.

I hope the rest of them are having fun, wherever they are.

You can run far. You can take your small precautions, but have you really gotten away? Can you ever escape? Or is the truth that you do not have the strength or cunning to hide from destiny? But the world is not small, you are. And fate can find you anywhere.

Death rages.

Back then, when I wanted those words, it came out so easily. Just like a flowing tap. But now, that tap's been screwed tight, and all that's coming out are little droplets, fragments of what could have been, and should have been.

I need to find that smoothness back. And let the words flow. But it's just so hard to say anything at the current state that we're in. And I need to know where I stand in her life.

Back on track, find out where I'm headed.

Death. It's something most people fear, and for good reason. Everything you've lived for, everything you've worked for, everyone you loved and love, all crumbles in front of  you the day you die.

I guess people don't want to die cause it means all they strived to achieve in their lives just vanishes. Or they just want to live it out, without any consequences.

To me, death is not something I fear, not something I look at with disgust.  In fact, I welcome death. It'll come sooner or later, whether you want it or not. Maybe I'm resigned to my own fate, and that I see this matter with tinted glasses. But it doesn't matter what others think. Effectively, everyday you lived for is in preparation for the day you die.

But death isn't the end. For believers, we go to Heaven. Wherever it is, I'm sure it's beautiful.

Who wants to live forever anyway?

"I guess not everybody gets old. Not everybody dies."

"Then you've just got that much longer to suffer, don't you."

- Sylar, Samson Gray

Sometimes you just want to put other people's happiness before yours:
because you love them, because they deserve it. 
Sometimes you want to go out of your way for people just 
because you know it's important that they get a chance to smile once in a while.

WHOOO MACHEDA!, Flight and swings.

With United 2–1 down and needing a goal to keep their title campaign alive, manager Alex Ferguson threw Macheda on in place of Nani just after the hour mark. After Cristiano Ronaldo equalised for United in the 80th minute, Macheda won the match with a curling effort from just inside the area in the third minute of injury time.

Don't you just love Wikipedia?

Okay okay enough with the bragging. Gets on other's nerves.

MY GOODNESS WHAT A GREAT GOAL.

Fine, fine, I'll stop.I can hear Alden's, Alex's and JJ's pleas.

Just re-watched Cold Snap again. Bryan Fuller is genius.

A little something about me.

When I'm bored, or need to go someplace to think, I head to Heritage View, Tower B, BBQ pit and start swinging.

Yes, you heard me right. Swinging.On swings.

Why? Swinging gives me freedom.In a way,I'm still hindered my the seat and gravity.

When the swing reaches its zenith, you get the feeling that you're on top of the world.Like nothing can stop you. And for that moment, it takes all your worries away.

But when you come back down, and reality snaps back to normal, that whole moment comes crashing down on you again. You want more. You need more. So you kick the ground, and start swinging again.

It's like experiencing a high(in this case, literally), that you want over and over again.

When you finally stop, you think back on that moment, and wonder why it didn't last longer.

And swinging makes you feel like you are actually flying. If that's not cool, I don't know what is.

Watched Shades of Gray again! ^^ I'm a happy Heroes fan.

I want to swing again.

Bombs away!

What do you get when you put 5 teenage boys, Orchard Road, Cineleisure, Alden's house, Burger  King and 6 ex-exco menbers together?

24 HOURS OF PURE FUN!

Shit I missed Toradora final ep.

I'll start with Thursday.

Had a conference with the dudes until 2+, then tried to sleep, finally did at 3.

Woke at 9, fell asleep again, woke at 10.

Fed my fish till 11 NUT.

Met Merv and Rae at FMSS at about 1230, before we went to fulfill Merv's chicken rice fetish.

Dropped by his place, said hi to the new kid, watched Ratatouille, played cards, and slacked the hell out of me.

Swimming @ Heritage next.Took gay-ass photos consisting of hydro-pumped pee, and played Murderer.

HIKEE!!

Makan @ hawker centre opposite West Coast Plaza.Coke with salt = not good.

Found out Alden didn't tell his parents we were staying over. :o

Found out that there was no Fanboys. :0

Found out that Alex likes MEN! :O

Went to Orchard, bought tickets for Confessions Of A Shopaholic.

Went to Heeren's Basement, and played Confessions Of 5 Teenage Boys.

ALDEN WANTS TO MAKE OUT WITH SOMEONE.

DERIC WOULD RATHER HAVE SOMEONE AS HIS WIFE INSTEAD OF SOMEONE!

SYAD LOVES UPPER/LOWER PIERCE RESERVOIR!

AND I ALMOST BOUGHT CONDOMS WITH ALEX!

Caught the movie.

Quite a good movie, IMO. Had good comic timimg. And having a 1.5 litre bottle of Coke brought in illegally helped too.

Movie ended at 3+? And so we started to hike.

Sang many songs along the way, most of which can be found in our new album, Threesome On A Tripod, by Tri-ller.

Examples:

Rest In Piss

Lightning Across The Sky(My Flashing Father)

Exploits Of A Long Legged Person

My Neighbour's On Crack

Please Don't Leave Me Tonight

Taxi Driver's Secret Meetings

Royal Embassies

Gleneagles

And many many more. CD out in 32 years,2 if we can find a producer.

Scared the hell out of a jogger @ 3.30am.

Sang Jurassic Park @ 5.00am, waking up most inhabitants of Jumbo Coffeeshop and surrounding areas.

Sang Digimon and Pokemon @ SP, and severely shocked a Indian worker.

Sang the Fairfield  Song and National Anthem,complete with instruments.

Died from a sore throat @ Clementi.Nut.

Finally reached our destiny, ALDEN'S MANSION!, @ 6am.

Played 3 PES games and got 5 Shiverpoot players sent off.

And Alex didn't want to bathe until Syad burnt his ass with a hairdryer.

Finally went to bed @ 7.

Woke @ 3.

I lesserthanthree my life.

Alex ran first cause he owed me 10 bucks.And still does.

Had brunch @ KFC,and stayed there for 2+ hours.

Fleming departed for his own destiny, and left me and Syad to go to the Land Of Windmills.

Damn, I have 15 mins of battery left on me laptup and I need to complete this post.

Met Agnes Hon Huiling, and joked around about mosquitoes.

Waited till Little Miss Cautious came, and we went up to BK.

Waited for the Samurai and Roothie to come.Seems like Samurai learnt metamorphosis, she came in no less  12 disguises. Syad and I caught them all.

Ate, rubbished, gossiped(for the Gurrls), joked, and made fun af anything and everything at BK until MR ENDIEAN KEELAH came and killed B.B.B. Rest in piss, B.B.B. You are sorely missed.

Syad then left for his own destiny, and left me with the Gurrls.Roothie made me carry her bag while she took mine. 

Lesserthanthree you, Roothie, for letting me explore my feminine side.But mascara, eyeshadow and lipstick is too much, thank you.

Went back and found out that I didn't bring my keys. Oh snap.

3 hours later, I'm here, happy, and sleepy. Hope I earned the dream.

Just another silhouette in the city.

"For the dreams to come, the ones that matter, sleep has to be natural. It has to earned.

-Angela Petrelli 

I tried to speak, but nothing came. Damn.

I need to earn that dream.Again.

And this week's Heroes was, once again, awesome. Volume 4's the best so far. I hope the great scriptwriting continues, even this volume ends.

Need.To.Sleep.

Looking forward to tomorrow and the next few days. It's gonna be GREAT. Ikea FTW.