Glee.

Feels like I haven't been updating for like forever, when in reality it's been only one week. Withdrawal symptoms?

Last three days have been quite fulfilling, made connections I needed to make, people I needed to talk to, places to go, songs to sing, blah blah.

It's nice to realize that my friends still accept me, despite whatever I've done.

Night hike was quite awesome, singing about modern monks without children. It's times & experiences like these, that make me so damn grateful for all the people that God's put into my life, for better or worse.

There's something gratifying about shooting your friends in virtual games, takes your mind off unwanted stuff.

Glee is AWESOME. One of the best shows I've watched recently. I love the way they integrate music into television so easily. Watching it gives me this sense of contentment, and a rush, similar to what I felt when I watched Toradora! . Brings back memories of secondary school, and youngloves.

Seriously, if Fairfield had a glee club, I'd be the first to join. I don't care that I can't sing or have two left feet, it doesn't stop the fact that I have a song to sing, and a message to put out.

Bucket list- 2/5 complete.

One week left to enlistment, I don't think there's any chance that SP's gonna throw me a lifeline. Besides, I never really placed much hope on it. I mean, one look at my record, and they'd be sending my ass out.

There's just not enough time to complete what I need, what I want. Furthermore, there's so much in my way, it's so easy to give up, to abandon this quest altogether.

Failure, a bad habit I've fallen into.

But I'm gonna make this work. One week left, it's do or die.

I will not bow.

Lying here beside me, with arms and eyes open wide.

Late nights aren't good anymore.

Before I forget.

CNY has been quite alright, it's nice to know that people see the progress I'm trying to make.

But hey, I'm not changing to show others, to improve myself in their judgements of me.

I had this talk with my brother about how different we'd be if we grew up closer to my dad's side of the family. One thing's for sure, I'd never be a Christian, I'd never have met the people I have, I'd never be who I am today.

I'm not saying that I'm perfect, in fact, I'm far from it. I'm just marveling at how the Lord works, how He changed my life without me knowing.

I've been listening to bands I'd forgotten recently. Bands like New Found Glory, Armor For Sleep, Green Day, Aiden. After all that time, they still appeal to me, after 2-3 years. I guess I've not really changed, at least musically.

Still, everybody's changing, and I don't feel the same.

This song really means a lot to me, quite the story of my life.

At Least I'm Known For Something- New Found Glory

I'm in and out of conversation

It's hard to keep my attention locked down

So don't take offence to anything i say

I tried so hard to keep you coming back my way

But you don't know that, and I'm the one to blame for it

Cause I'm best known for failure

Best known for giving up

There's nothing that I can say that can matter that can matter enough

Cause I'm best known for failure

Best known for giving up

There's nothing that I can say that can matter that can matter enough

I've figured out my situation

I am an endless source of useless information

Give me bad news 'cause it's already been expected

I let my front down

And i know i will regret it

But you don't know that, and I'm the one to blame for it

Cause I'm best known for failure

Best known for giving up

There's nothing that I can say that can matter that can matter enough

Cause I'm best known for failure

Best known for giving up

There's nothing that I can say that can matter that can matter enough

Lets get down to business now

I'm saving myself the trouble in the end

So lets get down to business now

I'm saving myself the trouble in the end

(Saving myself the trouble)

But you don't know that, and I'm the one to blame for it

Cause I'm best known for failure

Best known for giving up

There's nothing that I can say that can matter

I'm the one to blame for this

Yes I'm the one to blame

Best known for failure

Best known for giving up

There's nothing I can say that can matter

That can matter enough

Nothing that I can say, that can matter enough.

Grace.

I've been slipping up, more than usual recently.

It's so hard to keep myself away from sin, especially when it's all around us.

And, it's Chinese New Year again! I always liked this time, when my whole family gathers together for a day. It's never been about the red packets or goodies to munch on, just meeting up with relatives, catching up, keeping each other updated on our lives.

U2's a pretty good band to listen to when you want to relax. For me, at least.

I had this pretty long post in my head that I wanted to publish. I don't think it's the right time for me to make such judgements.

I'm looking forward to the rest of this week. And the next.

Someone once told me about an extremely bad day that he just went through. My perspective on it? There's no such thing as a bad day. We should take every single day that we have as a gift from God, thanking Him for giving us this chance to live.

Sigh, feeling down again.

Sigh.

Whoever said “what you don’t know can’t hurt you” was a complete and total moron. Because for most people I know, not knowing is the worst feeling in the world.

The saddest kind of sad is the sad that tries not to be sad. You know, when Sad tries to bite its lip and not cry and smile and go, “No, I’m happy for you”? That’s when it’s really sad.

Nobody is perfect. Everyone has their own little idiosyncrasies. Some people call those imperfections, but no, that’s the good stuff.

Sigh. There's so much I want to tell you, but there's no definite way to say it.

What time?

And, I'm back! After an almost week-long hiatus. Long story short, Kirsten died on me, ): but I revived her! Sort of.

Quite a bit has happened in the last week, mainly the letter from CPMB. Yeah, they finally decided to post me somewhere, hoho.

Can't say I'm particularly displeased with it, in fact, I'm quite happy with what I've been given.

Gives me something to do for the rest of this year, and the next, for that matter.

Still, it makes matters difficult, especially with this current time frame.

I guess it's just God's way of telling me to hurry it up, and there's barely any time left.

But there's so much I stand to lose. So much I can't bear to give up.

Time to let go, HG. Time to give it all away, and trust God. Have faith.