Even U2 and Glee can't lift me up like they used to.
I'm trying to stay strong, trying to laugh it off, trying to put on a brave front, but like acid, it's wearing down inside of me. Slowly, but surely, everything's gonna come out.
I want to put it behind me, but it's easier said than done. It's so difficult, when everywhere I go, I see something, anything, that reminds me of the whole fiasco.
There's only so many songs that I can get lost inside, only that few distractions that keep me away from reality.
I mean, there hasn't been any backlash of emotions, unlike the last time. But why does it hurt so much more?
Maybe I should have realized it from the start.
It's always been a lost cause, and still is.
Best known for failure.
Now, I'm pushing everyone away from me. This isn't who I wanted to be, this isn't what I had in mind.
Once again, this blog's become a hellhole of negative emotions. Maybe I should just ditch it all, and give up on this concept altogether.
Brings nothing but a burning feeling anyway.
Keep your head up (: even if it doesn't exactly work out the exact way you want it to be, remember that there's still the friendship. at least you chose to say, rather then keeping everything inside. good job (: continue to pray about it and i'm sure sooner or later, He'll reveal what He had in mind for you (:
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