Tired of starting again.

I almost slipped today, but in truth, it's all in my head.

Used again last week, despite my mental post-it notes and reminders everywhere.

At one point in time, it became more than an outlet for me, more than some temporary pleasure.

It became a habit. An addiction.

I want to get over this. Not just for my good, but for everyone else. I'm gonna be a cell group leader, hopefully, and I need to be a good role model for the kids.

The first week's always the hardest, but I will put this behind me.

I know I can't do this on my own, so Lord, help me. Be the light for my path, guide me through this mess that is my life.

I swear I'll never give in, I refuse.

The first day of the rest of my life.