What If?

Hello peeple, promised I'd update last week but didn't, get over it.

It's been real crazy lately, I really do need to catch up on programming and web design.

Something's been on my mind for the past few days.

Marvel Comics had this special thing they'd do for kicks,exploring the road not travelled, it's called What If?. What if Aunt May had died instead of Uncle Ben? What if Iron Man had been a traitor? What if Jean Grey had removed her powers instead of commiting suicide? All those stories untold, just because of a certain decision, or a route not taken.

Some of these scenarios turned out for the better, some not.(obviously.) But the main point is being able to apply hindsight to whatever we've done,in this case, Marvel, and see what would have happened, and what decision we would have made if we knew the outcomes.

I found myself applying this to my own life. What if I never went to Fairfield? What if I never had an interest in soccer? What if I had studied harder for my O's? What if, what if.

I realised I took the right path,(mostly) because, I guess, I just don't want things to change.

I'm glad I came to Fairfield, I got to know many people, lifelong friends, had fun, went through shit, did things I'd never do if I studied harder for my PSLE.

I'm glad I went to NP for like 6 months though it was a waste of time, it provided me an insight into poly life, met certain people, some good, some bad, learnt from the whole experience.

I'm glad I came to TP, found a home away from home, made really good friends, did real stupid stuff, learnt programming the hard way, screwed it up, learnt again.

I'm glad I'm writing this down, cause I don't ever want to forget.

But I still can't stop thinking of what could have been.

What if I had went to Scriptwriting in SP instead?

What if my score was good enough for me to get into Mass Comm?

What if I failed to get into TP, and started serving NS?

What if, what if.

I guess it's all set in place.Nothing ever happens without a reason, everything is planned by a special Someone. I'll find my purpose eventually, it's just a matter of time.

Until then, Mousehunt will keep me company.=)